Friday, January 25, 2013

Colorful Justice: a dangling conversation....

Way back in September, the MY teams had the opportunity to hear a lecture by Michelle Alexander, author of The New Jim Crow: Mass Incarceration in the Age of Colorblindness. Her talk had a unique relevance to my life here as I've been learning the stories of ex-convicts in our community, and as I've been learning more about racism. In honor of Martin Luther King Jr. this past week, I'd like to revisit this topic, which is actually overdue...

A quick synopsis:
As the United States celebrates its “triumph over race” with the election of Barack Obama, the majority of black men in major urban areas are under correctional control or saddled with criminal records for life. Jim Crow laws were wiped off the books decades ago, but today an extraordinary percentage of the African American community is warehoused in prisons or trapped in a parallel social universe, denied basic civil and human rights— including the right to vote, the right to serve on juries, and the right to be free of legal discrimination in employment, housing, access to education and public benefits. Today, it is no longer socially permissible to use race explicitly as a justification for discrimination, exclusion, and social contempt. Yet as civil rights lawyer-turned-legal scholar Michelle Alexander demonstrates, it is perfectly legal to discriminate against convicted criminals in nearly all the ways in which it was once legal to discriminate against African Americans. Once labeled a felon, even for a minor drug crime, the old forms of discrimination are suddenly legal again. In her words, “we have not ended racial caste in America; we have merely redesigned it.”
Michelle focuses on the Black community and the issue of drug-related crimes, but she acknowledges that this is only one particular area of focus among many important issues. Her aim is “to stimulate conversation about the role of the criminal justice system in creating and perpetuating racial hierarchy in the U.S.” Rather than outlining statistics, I'll simply recommend you read her book or visit her website (www.newjimcrow.com). What I would like to do here is make a few observations from my own life.

One particular man has been in the back of my mind as I've been thinking through the ideas that Michelle talked about. We met S in September one day at the bus stop. S recently got out of prison after 23 years. He said he would not wish that experience on his worst enemy. Our bus was an hour late, so we got to hear a lot about his crazy life. He was really encouraged to meet us, and has visited our service sites a couple times since we met him. "Mom always said, 'If you set out to do good, you'll meet good people.'" All of his family is gone, and because of what he's gone through, he doesn't trust anyone anymore. He lives in fear of going back to jail. "People approach me for the wrong reasons," he said, "I don't want anything to do with that." He's trying hard to get back on his feet, and, as far as I can tell, is doing an admirable job of it. How does a man like S get back on his feet when he has been branded as a felon for life? When he has been denied basic rights and has little to no chance of getting a job? Where can he find hope of starting a fresh life in a system designed to cripple him? He used to be a welder, but has since developed glaucoma and is blind in his right eye. What are his options?

People released from prison are in desperate need. The stigma of being labeled a felon is the hardest part, and often leads to silence. When people in our communities go to jail, they have a tendency to not talk about it. They just disappear for a while and when they come back, sometimes their families don't even know where they've been. They've just “been away” for a while. These people need safe places for themselves and for their families.

Where do you see racial discrimination?

Our team lives in the North Side. The 78 bus line takes us south toward downtown, and one of the first things I noticed living here is that, as we ride south, the ratio of Blacks to Hispanics seems to directly increase. Houston has a lot of diversity, but there's still a lot of segregation in neighborhoods. I forget sometimes that racism doesn't just happen between Whites and Blacks, Whites and Hispanics, etc. It happens between Blacks and Asians, Hispanics and Africans, etc. There are neighborhoods where railroad tracks literally separate Hispanics and Blacks.

I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: “We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal.”

One day Jessi and I visited the post office to pick up some packages. We were waiting in line, and there was a Black man and a Hispanic man ahead of us. I noticed as they went up to the desk to receive their packages that they were each asked to show ID, so I pulled out my wallet to present mine as well when my turn came. But we were never asked to show ours. “Did you see that injustice?” Jessi asked me as the woman went to collect our packages. “They didn't card us.” The Black man overheard her comment and said, “It's because you're white. People say there's no more racism in this country, but that's just an illusion.”

I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character.

On Tuesdays at Fletcher we serve homeless and low-income families by helping them get clothes. I've found it interesting to notice my reaction to people of different races. My comfort level around poor Hispanics seems fairly high, whereas when a White or Black person comes in, suddenly I avoid eye contact or remember to put my bag away. My housemates have expressed other reactions. Some are most comfortable around Blacks or feel very uncomfortable around poor Hispanics, depending on how their life experiences have shaped their perceptions. But many of us seem to agree that homeless white men make us the most uncomfortable...Why is that? I've discovered that I reserve less grace for poor white folk. I get caught in the mentality that, since white people don't have the same societal barriers that “marginalized” groups have, they should be able to help their situation...

I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, and every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain, and the crooked places will be made straight; “and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed and all flesh shall see it together.”

May the Giver of Dreams expand our capacity to dream. May our imaginations and creativity overflow into our everyday lives, so that “we will be able to speed up that day when all of God's children, black and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual: Free at last! Free at last! Thank God Almighty, we are free at last!”


Tuesday, January 1, 2013

What I love about our life (in no particular order):

Hey friends, some more Christmas break reflections.....

Limited access to internet. After about the first month of walking all the way to the library just to send an email, I sometimes thought: “Okay, I get it. Can I have my internet back now?” But the benefits have far outweighed the inconvenience by now. It is so refreshing to not have constant access to something that so easily swallows my attention and robs me of the joy of fully engaging with real people. I can't keep in touch with everyone I wish I could, even if I did have more access to internet, but I can love those right in front of me.
Budgeting. Since the beginning of college, I have diligently kept track of my finances. However, this is the first time I've had a specific allotment to spend on a monthly basis. What a brilliant strategy for making more thoughtful purchases! Why have I never done this before? I also appreciate the limitations of our grocery budget. We must use creativity and problem-solving (and math) skills to make wise purchases each week, carefully addressing our needs before wants. Not that we haven't experienced an abundance of food thanks to the generosity of friends, but I have noticed how abundance can lead to a loss of appreciation. I find myself feeling frustrated when our pantry or refrigerator is overflowing. When that happens, something inevitably goes to waste, I am more likely to snack even if I'm not hungry, and my gratitude gets lost somewhere in the superfluity. There is beauty in asking God to give us today our daily bread, literally.
Playing with kids. Interacting with kids was not a possibility I actively thought about as I anticipated Mission Year. But, lo and behold, a good chunk of my time is spent doing just that! And I remember how awkward it felt getting into it, but now my life feels so much richer because of it. When was the last time before this that I let my guard down enough to be silly with children? What a relief to give myself permission to do that! And what a joy to teach them and to share with them.
Being generous with my art. I am considering this year a Year of Jubilee for my art. Rather than hoarding and documenting every sketch to prepare it for sale, it has been a breath of fresh air to freely make art and to freely give it.
Public transport. I love not having a car! I don't have to buy gas, and I am less uptight about getting places on time because there is little to nothing I can do to control that. The bus ride to Fletcher in the morning is a blessed deep breath before starting the day, and the ride home a blessed time of deflation and reflection.
Doing life together. I love togetherness. I look forward to devos in the morning, curriculum discussions, making music together, team dinners, team nights...even our team meetings (I am the weird one in our house, clearly.). As someone with an introverted personality, I appreciate that we are placed in a position where we are challenged to be open and vulnerable with one another. It can take a heck of a long time for people to get to know me. I'm not sure I've ever gotten to know people this well in such a short amount of time.
No television. No surprise there. Those of you who know me well are familiar with my disdain for t.v.
Music. Living in a house of musicians has newly brought to my attention how vital and life-giving music is in my life. Music is truly the ultimate catharsis. I think I would die without it.
Seeking justice. It is so encouraging to live in a community of people with a common vision for justice. We are learning how we can take steps toward becoming more responsible consumers and stewards of the earth. As people who are often at the end of a long supply chain, it can be overwhelming to figure out where our products and food come from, but we are owning up to our responsibility, and little by little making adjustments together toward more honorable habits and lifestyles.
Our living situation. There are a number of things that are unique to our team. The typical Mission Year team is not as large as eight people. Teams are usually focused on one community, whereas our team is actively connected to 3-4 communities (neighborhood, service sites, church – this can be viewed as an advantage or disadvantage). Teams do not typically live on old church campuses that are being renovated into exciting new facilities. Teams do not typically have access to the resources that subsequently come along with all these things. (If you hadn't noticed yet, our team wins.) I want to soak up all of these gifts to the fullest.

Happy 2013!

Monday, December 31, 2012

Catching up again....

Hey everyone! It's Christmas break and time to catch up on some overdue reflections...

I came in with positive expectations for Mission Year, but I couldn't have imagined that life would look this beautiful four months down the road. I couldn't have imagined that I would miss so much the people who were strangers just a few months ago. I would go so far as to say that these have been some of the most life-giving months of my life. I feel alive here. I'm learning what it means to live life fully. A slow and incomplete transition is taking place in my heart by simply being present.

A look back....

 

Children have given so much color to our lives in Houston!

A couple "big picture" things I'm learning:
Slow down, let go. Life is less and less about what I do and more about who I am becoming.We do not belong to a kingdom of fast-paced productivity and physical results, but a kingdom in which relationships and personal investments disrupt our schedules. Efficiency and agendas lose priority, and inconveniences can be patiently accepted, even welcomed. I can embrace the trivial moments of waiting for the bus. I can set my project aside to play tag with kids that I love. I can even obey God's good commandment to take delight in the Sabbath, for heaven's sake. When we loosen our grip on seeking security, we get to see miracles. When I stop trying to be so in-control of my life, I build unexpected friendships and become free to enjoy the simple things.
Seek the good in others and affirm it. Even within a Christian community, we each bring our unique backgrounds and perspectives to the table. But rather than getting bogged down by differences, we can build each other up according to our needs and hold onto common ground. We can look for and find the image of God in everyone, especially those who are not like us.We can listen to one another without trying to fix each other.

Recent happenings...
Recording! We finally recorded a song together! And by candlelight, nonetheless. It was awesome. you can listen to it here: http://www.noisetrade.com/baumanroad
Bikes! Jessi and I did our final week at the bike shop. Through the Earn-a-Bike program, we brought home our own bikes for free!
Art from Trash! One Saturday we picked up tires from the neighborhood ditches and painted them with the kids. We're going to plant things in them when we get back!
Dancing! We had a dance night for Scarlet's birthday! She taught us the Charleston, Salsa, and Israeli folk dance, among other things.

Looking ahead....
Gardening: We're going to start growing things!!
Doing it the old-fashioned way: I'm learning how to make my own detergent and hope to hand-wash and line-dry my laundry in an effort to save energy and money.
Murals: There are some beautiful walls waiting to be painted :)
Teaching art class: Go figure.



I am thankful for the chance to catch up with people who have been supporting me throughout this journey, and the chance to step back and take an objective look at what has taken place. I am STOKED for what's ahead and the ways we're learning to live and grow. More reflections to come....

 

Monday, November 5, 2012

Life is Beautiful

(I meant to post this last week, oops...)

My heart is overwhelmed with joy. I've experienced so much beauty in the past couple weeks, and I will try to share some glimpses of it.

Little Friends
We have been so blessed with the opportunity to get to know some wonderful kids in our neighborhood. This first photo features a couple drawings that one of the neighborhood girls drew for us last Saturday. We did sidewalk chalk, played ping pong and toilet tag, got pastries from the PanaderĂ­a down the road, and I shared my pastels with them and tried to teach them how to draw horses. It was probably my favorite Saturday afternoon yet. Later we got to have them and their moms over for dinner. I am so excited to get to know them!

(Left: "Abi loves to sing, Tracy likes drawing" Right: "To: My BFFs from: Maya")

(The nursery at Fletcher)

It is such an exciting time in Mission Year because we are no longer just a new group of white strangers in town. People are calling us by name and we're building friendships with them!

(Simple Feast - James Bute Park)

Simple, beautiful moments from this past month:
Massage trains
Meeting people at bus stops and on the bus
Writing and recieving notes of encouragment
Music together
Volleyball in the park
Snuggling
Getting picked first for dodgeball :)
Unscheduled book discussions
Exploring the city
Ping pong
Sidewalk chalking
Soccer in the park

There is absolutely nothing else I would rather be doing with this season of my life.
 
 
Enjoy your week, friends


Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Love God, Love People

Hello! So last week each MY team wrote up a "covenant" for their team, outlining how we wish to live and grow this year and ways in which we will seek to keep each other accountable. It's a beautiful illustration of our commitment to one another and to God, so I wanted to share ours with you:
TEAM COVENANT
We commit to prayer as our first response in struggle for and with each other and our neighbors.
We commit to relate to one another:
- by laughing together
- by praying together
- by hugging it out
- through sincerity and vulnerability
- peacefully, by going directly to one another when there is conflict and always seeking restoration
We commit to listen:
- readily
- intentionally
- with open and humble hearts
- patiently
- without trying to fix each other
We commit to affirming one another by:
- building each other up according to our needs
- acknowledging the good things we see in each other
- listening to one another’s dreams
- encouraging each other in our creativity
We commit to seeking accountability in:
- following through with our commitments
- voicing our struggles
- our daily walk with God; this includes
                regular scripture reading
                prayer
                seeking God’s presence in our daily rhythms
                asking each other where we are or are not seeing God in our lives
We commit to incorporate creativity in our household and our ministry:
- We will create space to nurture and share each other’s artistic gifts
- We will challenge each other to explore new artistic areas
- We will seek to acknowledge our Creator and his creative spirit
- We will acknowledge that our creative gifts are from God
- We will worship and make music together weekly
We commit to seek justice:
- by cultivating justice as a desire of our hearts
- by striving to grow our awareness of injustice in the world, our city, and our home.
- by challenging one another to confront injustice
We commit to being good stewards, wisely using everything with which we’ve been entrusted:
- We will be fully present in our silence and our sound
- We will be generous and hospitable to our neighbors and each other
- We will be attentive to the needs of the homeless
- We will exercise together regularly
- We will respect our bodies, our budget, and our teammates by not hoarding food and by taking only what we need because all our provision comes from God
- We will reduce waste, recycling and reusing when possible
- We will remember that all of our resources belong to God, including our stipend. With that, we vow to spend wisely what we’ve been given by Mission Year. We are committed to talking through big purchases and seeking our teammates’ opinions about wants and needs.
In all things we will seek common ground and celebrate differences. In all things we will strive to worship God with our actions and attitudes, with our time and possessions. In all things we will strive to live simply. In all things we will seek to remember God’s faithfulness in past struggles, his present call, and his promise to make all things new. In all things we recognize that the goal of our lives in Christ.

Until next time,
Tracy

Friday, September 28, 2012

Catching Up: Part 2

Hey y'all! We've officially been here a month! This week I'm going to try to give you an idea of what a typical week looks like:

Monday:
We start most days together at 7:15am with coffee and someone leading us in prayer and thoughts for the day. Abi and I catch the bus around 8am to go to the Fletcher building of Mission Centers of Houston. It's about a half hour bus ride. Of the four MY teams in Houston, our house is furthest away from downtown, so we have to make plans well ahead of time. As we approach the city, the demographic ratio decreases in Hispanics and increases in African Americans. Currently on Monday and Wednesday mornings Abi and I work in the nurseries during the ESL classes. For almost three hours myself and another nursery worker tackle 12-16 toddlers. This being a new experience for me, the first day is still fresh in my mind of how overwhelming it was. But now the kids have settled in pretty well and I find myself enjoying it! Let's be honest, Spanglish-speaking toddlers are just about the cutest thing God ever made.
Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday afternoons about 15-25 Preteens come to hang out. Dodgeball, soccer, and basketball are their favorite games, and I quickly discovered how much I love soccer! Those are the best days, even if it does mean coming home with a few bumps and bruises. :) We close our time with Bible study and a snack.
By the time we get home it's usually after 6pm. Our teammates who work with Ecclesia make the team dinner Mon-Thurs so it's ready when we get home and then we clean up. Mondays we gather and sing some songs together before dinner, and after we have our weekly team meeting to talk about logistical stuff - house concerns, fundraising, and also ways we were encouraged during the past week.

Tuesday:
Tuesday is clothing distribution at Fletcher to homeless and low-income people. We act as personal shoppers to those who come, and also hand out some food and hygiene kits. It's a cool opportunity to talk with people one-on-one and hear their life stories. We also spend some time organizing the clothing closet with Emilio, which can be a lot of fun because you never know what you're going to find in there! Sometimes we'll also ride with Daphne to Sam's to get snacks and stuff for the kids.
Back at the house, we have Teacup Tuesday, which just means we decided to only drink out of teacups on Tuesdays to make Curriculum Night a little more special. We discuss the assigned chapters in the book for that week and enjoy pastries that we get super cheap at the PanaderĂ­a down the road. :)

Wednesday:
Wednesdays we brace ourselves for Kid's Club in the afternoon. This is by far the craziest day. About 60 elementary-aged kids running around screaming, and all you can do is pray that plenty of volunteers show up to share the load! Eventually I'll get to join in on the art class for the Preteens that goes on at this time...yeah, I'm looking forward to that day. It's not all bad, though. This past week I got to just love on some girls who missed their moms and draw some pictures for them, and that was really sweet. :)
Evenings at the house are Team Nights. The idea is just to spend some quality time together as a team. This month we've been taking turns telling our life stories, although this past week we decided to go out for pizza because two of our team members had birthdays! Sometimes kids in the neighborhood will come knock on door to see if we can play frisbee with them too.

Thursday:
Abi and I don't have to be at Fletcher til the afternoon on Thursdays, so the mornings make for some great down time - catching up on reading, playing my trumpet, etc. When we get to Fletcher we hang out with Noe and Daphne (the directors at Fletcher) and pray together before Preteens. Afterward we head over to the Gano building of the Mission Centers for City-Wide! This is the time that we get together with the other Houston teams for food, fellowship, and worship. Last night our team led worship and it was a lot of fun :)

Friday:
It's our Sabbath! Which means we can do anything, really, with the hope that it will be restful. During our technology fast we also have access to technology today (clearly), so we usually head for the library or a coffee shop. Taft, Ecclesia's old location, is one of my favorite places to chill on a Sabbath. There always seems to be homeless dudes hanging out in the cafe making art. I plan to bring some materials and join them one of these weeks. Later, my roommate Scarlet and I might close the day with a competitive game of Spanglish Bananagrams. :)

Saturday:
This is our community day. In the mornings we try to head out before the heat to visit neighbors at garage sales or the park. There are a lot of deep ditches in Houston, and in our neighborhood they tend to be full of trash, so a couple weeks ago we went trash picking for items we hope to use for art. Half of the team will go grocery shopping, which is always an adventure. In the afternoon we might make cookies for our neighbors or play with kids, and then in the evening we might have a community dinner and play frisbee or futbol (soccer).

Sunday:
We ride the bus part way to Ecclesia, and walk the rest of the way. We've been helping out with parking as the church gets used to their new location. They've been growing so much that they had to re-locate, and now we're in what used to be an old warehouse. After the service we head out with other volunteers to Simple Feast at James Bute Park. We hang out, give out food, and play volleyball with the people there. Rich and poor intersect, and it's like a glimpse of the kingdom of heaven. By the time we get home, some might be able to catch a nap while others go the local Washateria to do laundry. Eight white kids in a mostly Hispanic neighborhood stand out. We are recognized by more people than we can recognize yet. But that's also helped us to connect with people on a regular basis. The Washateria is a great place to do that.

Well, I was hoping I would have enough time left for a story, but it'll have to wait til next time.
Hasta luego!

Friday, September 21, 2012

Catching Up: Part 1

It's hard to figure out what to write about for my first in-Houston post. If I could tell you everything that has moved my heart over the past few weeks, we'd be here a long time and they'd probably kick me out of the library.

Let's start with my housemates...


Thanks to these beautiful people, I don't think I could feel any more at home in a foreign city as I do now. I live in a house full of fantastic musicians, and I am so excited to see where this goes! These past few weeks have been a time of beginning to discover who we are. What makes him laugh? What annoys her? Who opened up right away, and who is holding back? And why? And what is it like to live with me? Our perceptions constantly shift as we try to figure each other out, but it is remarkable how quickly you can get to know people that you are suddenly living with. And it's simply uncanny to me just how well we've all been getting along since Day 1! I wake up and pinch myself to make sure I haven't dreamed this.

In a few short weeks, things that were once unusual for me have become ordinary. But as Brennan Manning says, "We encounter God in the ordinariness of life." We spend more time waiting for buses than we do riding them. We spend more time walking home from the grocery store than we do shopping. We play volleyball with the homeless. And then there's my service site, where I spend mornings speaking Spanglish with toddlers and afternoons playing dodgeball and soccer with preteens.

I'm super crunched for time, but here are some more highlights from this month:
My trumpet, which I've barely touched over the past four years, has been seeing the light of day again.
David Crowder led worship at our church last Sunday :)
Last Saturday we had some neighbors (who happen to have 8 brand new adorable puppies) over to our house for frisbee, homemade pizza, and music. It was absolutely wonderful!

Little by little we are growing in love.
Until next week....!
Tracy